Wow. I can't believe it has already been seventeen days since Tony left for tour. It feels like yesterday Lyndsey and I took him to the airport. Today he is in Canada. He told me he built me a snowman, named Ashley, that had some interesting attire and accessories. He should have photos up soon on his blog. I'll be looking forward to those.
Why is it that I have to relearn to trust God with my fears and with my dreams. I have so many fears that usually involve change. I'm afraid of moving away from my family. I'm afraid of failure. I'm afraid of lots of things, and God has shown me over and over again that it isn't about me. He has shown me that He is the one that gives me my opportunities, so I don't really understand why I always worry about accomplishing things that aren't really up to me in the first place. I'm often frustrated with myself for feeling so afraid. Somehow I can't seem to kick the habit of going up and down on this rollercoaster of trusting God one minute and things go great, and then trying to take over all the while failing to be in control the next minute.
When will I ever learn???
