Day 63

Time is a funny thing. Sometimes you look up and it has gone by really really fast. Sometimes you feel like you live in a moment for ages. And then sometimes it feels like you aren't even moving at all. Which moments do you savor?

I find it really hard to live in the moment. I really want to, it's just that I always find something holding me back, or thrusting me forward... trying to live in the past or the future. How do you live in a moment that you don't necessarily want to be in? I suppose that is when prayer and faith carry you to the next moment when the time comes for that moment to pass.

I guess the real trick would be to figure out how to want to be in your moment.

Day 47

I went to see my Nana tonight after work. She had been in the hospital for 4 or 5 days due to dehydration, Bronchitis, confustion/dementia, and lack of food. She is 87 years old; survived cancer twice! What a trooper she has been. She was... is so sweet. Was very weak, but in good spirits. She thought I was my mother for the last hour or so I was there. She kept telling me she remembered when I won the baby pageant in Ozona, Texas. I don't think I've ever been to Ozona! Haha, or EVER won a pageant.

Seeing her tonight helped me remember how much I cherish her. I treasure those sweet moments I spent with her tonight. I hope to always remember them.